I’m going to be totally honest here: I had a rough winter. You see, I reached my goal weight last August, and suddenly I didn’t have my “Fat Barrier” holding back all the internal issues I’d had inside me for years. I had the worst case of anxiety and depression I’d ever had. I had days at work where I would all of a sudden start sobbing and need to get OUT of there. Luckily I have a very understanding boss and coworkers, and I could escape when I needed.

What it felt like inside me.

Things were so bad, laughing and smiling seemed alien to me. Being alone at home in the mornings was torture.  It was cold, and snowy, and dark, both outside and inside me. Years ago (I’m talking before I graduated high school), my first “boyfriend” broke up with me, and for weeks the only thing…